Here’s where I have been. Basically, I took a break, from life, from everyone and everything that was stressing me out or getting me in a bad mood all the time.
I avoided all social contact and stayed away from the academy. I didn’t want to neglect my blog as well, but at that time I felt a lack of enthusiasm in my writing-style. And today, I feel so much better and ready to get on with life.
Seems like this year is already flying by, so fast. I can’t even remember a minute of February. Luckily for my memory, I took some pictures as a result of the February Photo Challenge. The reason I joined this challenge was simply because I wanted to change my perception of photography, by not-taking-it-too-seriously and
using my cellphone as the camera, trying out new filters apps and force myself to share the in-my-opinion-not-so-perfect pictures on my Instagram. This was one of my New-years resolutions. I didn’t finish the challenge as supposed to, but instead it gave me bravery to actually post pictures on Instagram more often, and not being concerned about the overall look of my account. I was always struggling, trying so hard to have a consistent look, but I learned to accept that it wasn’t going to happen.
What did happened in February:
My boyfriend and me, finally got rid of that Christmas tree we’ve been neglecting for the whole month of January (Though secretly, I am already missing the Holiday season.) And I keep hoping we’ll buy a real tree next year. Fingers are crossed.
Thanks to a few wonderful sun-shiny warm days, I felt like never wearing a coat ever again. What also results in: me, going out, with no coat, and regretting not bringing a coat along with me. Spring is really happening: people are in the mood for pastels and bright colors, flat shoes and skirts, ice creams and festivals.
Me: I’ve been stuck in my imaginary-endless-summer-of-the-fifties, singing along with Elvis Presley and feeling as pretty as Lana Del Rey. I have this serious obsession (Seriously though, I get obsessed so easily these days about any thing, and not even slightly) , what I was heading to; I have this obsession nowadays about wanting to visit America soon. I find it so curious to be able to envision something I’ve never seen in real life but only in movies and pictures. I wonder how close my imagination is true to the reality.
Anyway, March was happening and it totally felt like the whole world was suddenly visiting Paris at the same time. I think it had something to do with fashion week. I wasn’t aware of that fact, until I was in Paris already. Yes, I had booked a 3-day trip to Paris for me and my boyfriend. At that time, I was still very stressed-out and the amount of tourists in Paris overwhelmed me. I could feel the tension and the hurry everywhere. Somehow, I always wonder what people find so attractive and romantic about Paris. I personally love London a lot more. I guess foreigners might love the French language, the architecture or simply the idea of L’époque de Marie-Antoinette. I still hope to fall in love with Paris one day.
March the 21st, the day I reached my 23rd birth year. I totally was not looking forward for that day. And I totally ignored the beautiful sun on that wonderful spring day. The day after my not-so-joyful day, I accepted my new number. Twenty Three, goddamn me. It felt so old to me and painful so see myself at such age not even completed or accomplished one thing in my entire life. The only thing that I am proud of is my drivers license; hey, at least I can drive a car. Anyway, I found myself ridiculously obsessing about my age, so I took the time to read other bloggers celebrating their birthdays as well. A blogger brave enough to announce her thirtieth birthday, made me realize how stupid I was for even thinking I was old or not youthful. I suddenly saw the benefits of reaching the mid-20s. Reading inspiring blogs made me also want to inspire myself by writing meaningful blogs. It does not mean that I don’t want to talk “Beauty”, I honestly believe a woman should indulge herself with care and beauty to make her feel empowered as a beautiful woman. It’s just that I think I should express myself a lot more, not hesitate that much and just go for what comes to my mind.
These past couple of months were for me the perfect time to calm down, take a step back, questioning why I have been pushing myself into this stress-madness and think about what I want to accomplish next.
Hopefully this blog wasn’t boring you. (‘~’ )
Expect a spring post very soon. °(^.^)°
Feel free to comment below. , S.